I was never in any crowd, hell: I didn't even belong in my family. I always heard 'She's so different' & 'She's so unusual' etc, never understood why.
I tried to fit in and never succeeded.
I lost myself in the process of adjusting to how I thought I should be to be accepted. I am currently trying to go back to who I was so long ago to find out what I really like, what makes me 'me'.
Sensitivity, shyness, and a sense of guilt can really mess you up.